After 27 years of Buddhist meditation practice, a handful of years seeking within the Non-Dual realm and therapy, suffering was still present, and resistance to suffering was creating more suffering. I tried diligently to meditate away unwanted emotions; fear, helplessness, unworthiness, loneliness and fear of loss. Chronic health concerns and PTSD in the system shadowed every aspect of life. Rather than opening to these energetic orphans calling out for attention, I ran from them. Gradually, with good fortune and amazing guides, that which was rejected began to be met. It continues still.

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Now there's a deep knowing that there are no mistakes: seeing that it couldn't have been any other way, compassion arises naturally.

 

I am grateful for the years of meditation. The seeds were sown, growing into plants with strong roots. Not least, I am incredibly grateful for the many teachers, guides and a great therapist. Their support is everything, and I wouldn't be offering what I do if it wasn't for their wisdom, direct pointing and care. Meditation looks different these days, and is accompanied by inquiry and shadow work; pleasure and enjoyment; tenderness and love ... and a big dollop of humour.